Where I Am and Where I Want To Be

Where I am and Where I Want To Be

Where I am is hard to embrace because I know where I want to be

Where I want to be seem so far off and it seems that my peers are passing me

I see my potential and I understand the process to reach God’s promises

But to start at step one would be rudimentary and humiliating compared to others

My pride won’t let me admit that in some areas I need some development

Where I am…there are no accolades in the step-by-step approach

My peers may think, “She should already know the ropes.”

To conform I abandon who I am and clothe myself with a façade

Giving the illusion that I am where I want to be

Now I’m at war…fighting to be like them and rejecting the idea of being me

I won’t embrace the process for fear of being judged

An imposter

Who leaves their potential hanging in the balance

How will I ever become all that God wants me to be?

Through humility

To accept me

To fully appreciate that I was molded fearfully and wonderfully

With purpose

That I too am equally important to the Body

Given a specific role and function that no else can accomplish

If I don’t take up my cross the body will malfunction

Do I really want to be held accountable for this dysfunction?

But I look at me and I look at them and think, “Will I turn out as glamorous?”

Where I want to be I can see it clearly…

I want it so desperately

Help me God to weed out and prioritize what motivates me

Help me God to shift my focus from seeking my glory to Your Glory

In Jesus Name, Amen!

1 Pet. 4:10 NLT God has given each of you a gift from his great variety of spiritual gifts. Use them well to serve one another.

Romans 12:3-5 Because of the privilege and authority, God has given me, I give each of you this warning: Don’t think you are better than you really are. Be honest in your evaluation of yourselves, measuring yourselves by the faith God has given us. Just as our bodies have many parts and each part has a special function, so it is with Christ’s body. We are many parts of one body, and we all belong to each other.

Romans 12:6-8 In his grace, God has given us different gifts for doing certain things well. So if God has given you the ability to prophesy, speak out with as much faith as God has given you. If your gift is serving others, serve them well. If you are a teacher, teach well. If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take the responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly.

Matt. 25:28-30  “Then he ordered, ‘Take the money from this servant, and give it to the one with the ten bags of silver. To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away. Now throw this useless servant into outer darkness, where there will be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’

Col. 3:23 Work willingly at whatever you do, as though you were working for the Lord rather than for people.

2 Tim. 1:6-7 This is why I remind you to fan into flames the spiritual gift God gave you when I laid my hands on you. For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.

1 Cor. 1:27-29 Remember, dear brothers and sisters, that few of you were wise in the world’s eyes or powerful or wealthy when God called you. Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful. God chose things despised by the world; things counted as nothing at all, and used them to bring to nothing what the world considers important. As a result, no one can ever boast in the presence of God.

Luke 16:10  “If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities. 

Psalm 139:13-18 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother’s womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can’t even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up you are still with me!

 Matt. 16:24-25 Then Jesus said to his disciples, “If any of you wants to be my follower, you must give up your own way, take up your cross, and follow me. If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it. And what do you benefit if you gain the whole world but lose your own soul?

1 Cor. 12:4-7 There are different kinds of spiritual gifts, but the same Spirit is the source of them all. There are different kinds of service, but we serve the same Lord. God works in different ways, but it is the same God who does the work in all of us. A spiritual gift is given to each of us so we can help each other.

1 Cor. 12:22-25 In fact, some parts of the body that seem weakest and least important are actually the most necessary. And the parts we regard as less honorable are those we clothe with the greatest care. So we carefully protect those parts that should not be seen, while the more honorable parts do not require this special care. So God has put the body together such that extra honor and care are given to those parts that have less dignity. This makes for harmony among the members, so that all the members care for each other.

1 Cor. 12:27 All of you together are Christ’s body, and each of you is a part of it.